a week we wait...

ray's tests were done yesterday. so, a week we wait for the results. ray and i are going to have a one night out with m and b to celebrate the four of us involved in this journey, on saturday night! we will take in some natural beauty and relax with good company! hopefully a campfire will cook dinner, and smores,( i can limit myself to one, if i'm good all day!) sleep under the stars, then come home to a (i'm sure) much needed shower. i know there have been many others in the world who have chosen to take this journey, but to me, it's surreal, so surreal. i'm thrilled, i'm scared, i may be moving too fast in writing a blog, but, why not? if the journey must come to a hault for any reason, it is a journey, non the less. i didn't expect any followers, i just want to chronicle the experience from the beginning, in hopes we can look back at the whole event. i will start taking pictures, g rated, of course!!! i'm sure there will be many tears. tears of joy, laughter, pain, frustration, confusion, pretty much every emotion could carry tears in this journey!

it's wednesday, june 29, 2011, ray's appointment is at 6pm.

he will be receiving medical testing for any and potential threats to m and the baby. i am ready to go pick him up from work to take him. we have tickets to see transformers 3, tonight. if all tests come out clear, we will make our first fertilization attempts mid to late july! we may even go to santa cruz or monterey, somewhere on the coast, we can rent adjoining rooms and reduce the distance of delivery, insuring more life of product, the substance has no shelf life, we have minutes, not days! m is 40 years old, so there are a few road blocks delivered by nature, but, we are going to give it a go! wish us all luck, our journey has just begun. i hope you enjoy the ride ride with us. forgive my grammar, forgive my bluntness, forgive me for being me! hold on, it may get bumpy, but, i have a feeling it's gonna be exciting! maybe m and b, me and ray can take a trip to new york to get married, legally! m to b. me to ray! our lives may change forever!

on sunday, june 26, 2011.

the meeting went well. ray and i drove to b's house which is literally walking distance! m and b sat us down and asked, "well, whatcha think?" so, our questions came pouring out. m will be propped up with pillows awaiting the immediate delivery of ray's sperm. fertilization attempt will take place. medical testing for any potential harm to mother/child will need to be done, prior. m and b will cover all financial responsibilities, the child will attend school where m and b reside, (the child lives with the girls). ray and i will have full rights and share parenthood, visitation, involvement, etc. we chatted about clothing, decor, names, gender, m thinks the child will be male, ray, b and i think a girl. we laughed, we smiled, lots, i even shed a tear. we said yes! the four of us will become five. i do have to mention, our baby will have siblings, b's children, i hope to meet, soon! we said yes!

it all started on the night of june 18, 2011

i worked, so was unable to attend the concert at the casino, joan jett and the black hearts. ray was joined by m and b, b's sister went in my place. i received a text message from ray, late, i was on the phone with a friend. the message stated, "i have soooooo much to talk to you about." so, when ray got home, he told me why b was so blunt and talkative about if we ever considered or would consider having children, when we were on our way to the britney spears concert, a few days before. ray said, "when m and b's sister left the casino buffet table to use the restroom, b asked me if i would consider having a baby with the two of them, so the four of us will be parents, m will be the birth mother, and me the father. "yeah!", ray's response to my response of my jaw hitting the floor and grinning with excitement! ray and i discussed all the questions we had. then ray sent m a text message the next morning requesting a day to get together to discuss everything! the set day was sunday! it all feels right at the meeting, the answer will be a yes. are ray and i really going to be parents? sharing responsibility with a lesbian couple, two fantastic women, the potential mothers to our potential child. life feels pretty good, right now!